I have been for the better part of two weeks trying to figure out what I want to write about. Words seem to keep failing me and this is frustrating because I can always find something to talk about. In many ways this has given me the time to rest. I recently found out that I have a "heart" issue that will resolve in time, but the stress of back and forth to doctors is taking its toll on me. I know that I will get better and I am not worried about this. I just don't like being told to rest. Rest. That is easy to say to someone in theory, but in reality, having absolutely nothing to do causes more stress as things start to pile up from... you guessed it, doing nothing. It's a double-edged sword. One that makes complete rest, 100% out of the question. Yes, I am taking it easy and doing what I can. Asking for help when I need it, and pushing off things that do not need to get done right away. That doesn't mean I am doing nothing at all, in fact, I feel like I have don...

This year is going to be great. I am happy to announce that I have completed many of the Book of Shadow collections and I am in the process of adding them to Patreon for sale! WOOHOO!! This is a huge step for me. I have been working on these collections for the better part of four years, going back and forth with organization, style, and structure. I wanted something that was different than the Canva-template Book of Shadows you find on Etsy, many which are filled with inaccuracies and lack solid information. My goal was to create something that inspires, not frustrates. I believe that I have achieved that. I still have more to finish, but starting somewhere is a goal. I have many goals for this year. Some are personal goals, and some are business-related, but the key word for all of them is starting. Most people never start and that is why they never get where they want to go. My issue has never been starting; it's been seeing things through to completion. I usually hit a wall whe...

I was cleaning up some computer files and I found one about speaking in tongues or glossolalia . Speaking in tongues is where you speak a foreign language without knowing the actual language. It would be like speaking in Hebrew without knowing any Hebrew. Usually there is someone around who can translate the words and know and understand what you are speaking about. Otherwise, what is the point? Sometimes the words that I speak are not always tied to a language that is spoken or written in modern times, or even in ancient times. There is no recorded history of anything... not even a blending of words from multiple languages comes close to the meaning. It becomes more of a feeling or an expression.  A while back on my birthday, my telepathic annoyance of whatever he is to me, friend, wished me a happy birthday telepathically after I specifically asked him not to. He drew out the birthday greeting to something like: Hhaa...app..pyy...Birrrttthhhdaaayyyy. I think you get the point. I ...

  Today, marks the official start of the winter season, as well as the celebration of Yule. It's been brutally cold for me here is Pennsylvania. I can't remember a November and December this brutal. The Winter Solstice is a time of deep thought and preparing for the year ahead. It is not a time for kicking back and letting things get away from you... The reality is, time marches on and things that you put off will just be harder to do when you need to finish it, rather than spreading the task out over time.  For me this is ever more present in my life. I have put off tasks that I 'thought' were easy and now that the time has come to finish them, I realize that I should have started those tasks much earlier because they are in fact more complicated than I thought they were.  For me, this is the publication of my Book of Shadows Collections. My deadline is the end of the month, but I was hoping to publish and list for sale all of the collections by Yule... today. I have p...

I sat down the other day and realized it was mid-December, and I wanted to plan out activities for the next year. Then I saw that I didn't have a calendar for next year. This snowballed into me looking for the dates of the full and new moons, zodiac dates, solstice and equinox... The list was extensive. I prefer to have a printed calendar for my kitchen bulletin board (yup, I have a whole wall that is cork... it's awesome!) Of course finding a ready to buy off the shelf calendar is impossible for me, not because of price, but just because of the lack of inclusion of Pagan holidays.  I did add in all Federal Holidays to the calendar but not this list. ( I mean, it would be stupid not to, the rest of the United States runs on this... and I have been caught out going to the bank on a holiday...) This is the link to the Free Download for the 2026 Calendar . Please note it is designed to be light on ink usage for printing... No added fluff like images. There is space to write notes ...

I have nothing really important to share. I guess I just really want to check in and say: I am still here. I am just in the background struggling with my journey and don't have the courage to share my thoughts. Anniversaries of important dates have hit me hard and the lack of connection for me, just puts me into a state of: I just don't care. What is the point? I keep feeling faith and doubt have a lot to play into this, but it is not my own faith and doubts that I feel are holding me down. For those of you that have followed along, my telepathic link to Michael is what I am talking about. He keeps facing his lack of connection to God or the Universe and I am just along for the ride. I have nothing to offer him or anyone else on how to connect to God. Must be a joke right, your a minister Athena! No jokes here. I can explain how to do it all day long, but your connection to God is your own, I can't force it to happen in you. Only you can find it.  That is what Michael doesn...